My heart is pounding and I start to sweat. I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing, but I must now put behind me. I shall go to my department manager with the firm intention to tell him about my female emotions. I do not know how to begin the conversation and so I try to prepare him that he will now probably equally surprised. I am very nervous and tell him that I will come in January as a woman to work. He can also imagine, I show him some pictures of me that I have on the iPod and how I had announced his surprise it was pretty tall. I tell him then more of me as a woman, my feelings and I am the issue of trans identity busy since my childhood and I always had the feeling that something is wrong with me. Despite his surprise, his response was very understanding and sympathetic. He encouraged me and meant that the role change is likely to represent us in the company no problem.
I was so relieved that I finally dared to take this step that I'm still dedicated to following my colleague who sits opposite me in the office. His first reaction was surprise, but then also kindness and understanding. I am also not the first transgender person he knows. From his environment, he knows a young lady, Farah and I have even been interviewed (Sonja). After my colleagues, I have informed a colleague, also a similar reaction. After three outings I was pretty exhausted because I have three times to overcome my fear and I have found the reactions of my colleagues. It then went the whole week. I went to almost all of my colleagues back and told them of my intention that I will come in January as a woman to work. I also have all then also shown some pictures and they kept following the decision on the name change under the nose. Gave me the piece of paper the security, I for the Coming-Out have used in the company. Without the decision I would not have ventured to this very important step for me. Now I have informed almost all my colleagues in the field, and a few colleagues from the departments with which I have to do so again. However, still missing a couple, I want to personally inform you about my role change. I hope that I will reach them on Monday. All other colleagues who know me, but that I have to do something rarely will inform me on Monday or Tuesday via email.
this week I have experienced a lot of understanding and goodwill. My colleagues were very surprised, but they have shown me exposed to any adverse reactions. During the talks, I felt connected with my female colleagues and one of them said to me: "Welcome to the Club," which I thought was very nice and I felt myself very feminine, even if I did not look. I'm looking forward to the first day as a woman in office, although I myself still feel a little anxious. If I were in the 10th January think I am on the one hand very resolved and look forward to finally go to work so I can feel on the other hand, I realize I'm still pretty anxious. After all, I do not have dedicated to all colleagues in the company and will continue not to do, but only in their communities. I do not know how to react to colleagues that I know her only by sight. I am thinking particularly of the first lunch as a woman with us in the canteen. Some are staring at me, or does not fall on me. Such thoughts make the time to create yet, but I think I'll tackle that too and probably a week after the 10th January no problem, neither for me nor for my colleagues.
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